That's what I'm trying to say, is hard to believe. But I believe you. I still want to finish writing that story that I started to imagine at age 9 and was about a little duck who wanted to find his family. For a change and do something more cute, less depressed and violent than I normally do.
I think people imagine me as a sex crazy pervert or something
I'm working on a world for 15 years now for example, I love a lot of things, and I actually add them to the pictures. For example: Watch the backgrounds, and you'll know me, I know it's strange, but still... Only a few commissioners have idea about the backgrounds, so when I draw them that's a little 'me'. Watch closely even the hardest porn I draw, clearly shows that I love organic stuff, nature, fantasy, books, little containers with stuff in them, scrolls, trees, etc. I'm sorry for the longcomment but I felt like i want to speak ^^
My grandfather used to say: the first impression esses the first idea that you always have of that person, and not miss the day where you wonder how you know this person, and so you remember how you should see it (maybe that's why I did not try to make pornographic art). I know you as an pornographic artist, I see you as an pornographic artist, and I think that's bad because now that you mention it I would have liked to know you had other idea besides what do you do usually.
I got involved nine years writing a story, is a bit long and complicated and I've only finished the first part. But even this story may include violent or sexual history always trying to give a focus on a good story to follow it, because if I focus a lot in sexual or violent history, then would not have much sense. Prefer not be seen like someone who only writes stories with a sexual contended with violent content, more as this story has it but does not focus on that. And so far my critics have told me that on my own idea I censored too much sexual matters, but after a while you realize how much I do not try to make you masturbate with my work, if not also notice you have a story from ancient times love, anger, innocence, mythology, war and fear (I do not think that history is too short or poorly explained as to not understand each topic).
talking about long comments, but I can add that I understand what you say and is very interesting.